Monday, November 8, 2010

The Woods


Dont worry. If something weird can be done, it will be done. If you build it, I will come. If it exists, I will find it. If it doesn't exist, I will make it.


Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Oh no I have to go to walmart.


The most dreaded place of all.

Heres my cologne shot. Done on the beach that is in my spare bedroom. And yes, the cologne does actually smell good and I'm not much of a cologne girl. Most of them make me sneeeeze.

Rambling.



Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Beverage




So fresh and so clean clean?

Round 2






Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Glass

I wasn't that impressed with myself for this assignment. However, my teacher was. This was shot in color, I just made everything in the scene black and white.

Monday, September 6, 2010

"lets make a movie, but bring your camera just in case"



Just in case something weird like this happens.
Just in case we spend an hour and 1/2 trying to get balloons to float chinese lanterns. Or just balloons to stick on the walls and cat.
I'm glad Dali faced her demons in the end, nipping the great devil - the balloon.



and the after party.


Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Resume pace



Back in action! I only have one class this semester that I'll be consistently shooting in. It's kind of disheartening but also a nice change. First assignment...light painting. FUN. Just set up your shot, and release the FLASH LIGHT.

I'm going to develop my film tonight. Maybe now. Ok now.

I scanned these at home on my PRO LESS THAN PERFECTION EPSON V200. Ignore the grain, lack of contrast and greyscale limitations. Ignore everything except for subject matter.






Friday, July 2, 2010

this IS a photo school diary

and its summer. The summer of Erin. Will post pics when I can get some models together. I forgot about the summer of film. I've been so distracted by all this free time to play that I've forgotten my cameras. Naughty.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Goodbye large format camera

I will miss our time together. Thanks for listening, I will miss the time I spent yelling at you for wobbling on the tripod...and yelling at you when I couldn't get anything in focus. And yelling at my dark cloth when the wind blew it off me. And yelling at the sun for moving. And yelling at my loupe for lying to me about the clarity in your ground glass.

But ultimately, I will miss you for the mere fact that I chose to shoot in a style I didn't understand so I could feel like I accomplished something and I think I did it. Even if I don't have a stunning portfolio from it. I was able to understand the movements and learn to be aware of things I didn't pay attention to at first. Is that learning? Did I actually learn something?

I will miss the time it takes to photograph something/someone/somewhere and the effort that has to be put into making a single image. The time I spend setting up and watching the sun move behind the clouds gave me time to think about why I was photographing my subjects.

Here's my favorite from the last batch. :( Maybe one day I can buy my own. Goodbye my 2nd love (second only to Eddie)

I'm going to have a film summer. I'm going to shoot with film and enjoy it. Give my digital a break with some pampering like lens & sensor cleaning. There's something about film. I can't forget that. It's cliche I know. But there's something different about my work that is not digital. I can see it myself, I don't know if anyone else can but that seems important to me. It seems like I should pursue it because of that.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Go back to your roots.

I just went through a bunch of photos I took before I knew how to take "technically correct" photographs. I used to have passion! Knowledge is the key to life and also death. I was making photos that meant something to me, even if technically they weren't even close to being right. Maybe I need to forget my educated, technically proficient side and just GO.

I think I might try to find some people and grab my film camera w/ my sturdy 50mm lens and shoot. Forget studio lights, reflectors, assistants, metering, trying to be perfect. There is no passion in perfection. At least not for me. I used to see shapes, lines, patterns of light. Now all I see is the "visual checklist", a mechanical means of producing images that are acceptable. I don't want to think that way, I don't want to be restricted to that and I am. I hate chains.

This summer will be liberating. I'm going to take advantage of the time and produce some work that is TOTALLY unrelated to school.

I wish I could paint or draw.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I got my first caricature!

I attended Jambando tonight at the Plaza Theatre (http://www.jambando.com) and Eddie and I had our first caricature EVER drawn by Maria Bolton (www.mariabolton.com) and its AMAZING. See for yourself, I look better in caricature world than real life. Haha

I'm doing my semester long documentary on her and her activities from art to animal rights and awareness, eco awareness etc.

I know I'm not supposed to participate in anything or accept gifts to be a professional documentary photographer but um...I'm weak and lets be honest about my doc work...I'm not going to make a career out of it. And lets be honest again and say who could turn it down?

I also became very aware of the similarities between her drawing caricatures and me taking photos of people. I'm always more of an observer than a participant so I ended up listening to the way she spoke to people (including me) to ease the discomfort that is in the first 20 seconds of the process. But what it made me realize is when I'm in the studio getting ready to shoot someone (with a camera) the tension that arises is not being in front of a camera but being in the vulnerable position of allowing someone studying you. Ordinarily we don't spend time with our friends or strangers staring at each-other and studying each others features. Or at least I don't.

What a funny cultural instinct though, to feel vulnerable because someone looks at you longer than a glance. I'm guilty of that feeling of vulnerability too though so I'm in no way pointing anyone out or passing judgment. I get weirded out when people stare at me and then I realize it's probably because I'm sprawled out on the floor somewhere with a big camera trying to get a good shot, or its because my zipper is down or I only put mascara on one eye. Just an observation I made. It just reminds me of animal instincts, that an animal staring at another is usually a sign of aggression or some kind of territorial thing. One becomes dominant, one submissive or they fight to figure it out. In this case you submit to the fear of being studied physically and the connection that arises from it, but you quickly realize its a place of total comfort and actually fun.

I remember Eduardo Rubiano giving us the advice to pursue things that we fear, because the fear is probably the recognition that it could be something you will fall in love with.

What am I talking about? Is this an antibiotic induced hallucination? Did I really just go from drawing to animal instincts?

I'm actually really sick. But I can't stop my life and responsibilities because of it. Can I? No.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Oh my toe

oh my toe. oh my god. writing oh my god with your left hand one level up from the right makes you write "oh my toe". i made myself laugh.

what i was saying....is oh my god, to live is to die (metallica) is the most beautiful song ever. I haven't listened to it in so long. music tells stories too.

but what it doesn't tell me is if i took an antacid from this bottle sitting in front of me. but if i was to trust this song, and my heartburn i would assume no i have not taken it yet.

i will go to bed when the song ends, til then, I WRITE...

see, i had metallica cd's and they all got scratched and worn from playing and replaying over my favorite parts of songs...so by the time i upgraded to having an ipod like a year ago i couldn't get any of the songs onto it without skipping. then i forgot about them? maybe i was afraid lars ulrich would come after me for downloading them on limewire?

Yeah, laugh away...I got my first hand me down ipod when i was 24. just like how i had a pager til i was 21 (I'm 25 now). my trend is to follow trends AFTER they're less trendy, less expensive and less coolness. Don't be jealous.

To live is to die: 4 minutes and 56 seconds in enters the most serene, beautiful sadness and desperation and transitions into a solo that begins to tell that story further, and then merges into anger and angst. Building up and climaxing, repeating, and surrendering at 8 minutes and 54 seconds.....slowly leave the scene and merge back into the sadness, submitting to the past; the beginning...and fade off the way you faded in.

Musical geniuses....even if they sue their fans.

Wooh. Music. Don't forget about music as an inspiration. I want to make photographs to the movement I feel in my heart when I hear this song.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I want to be reincarnated as a manatee.

I do. Really. So if reincarnation IS real, I hope to be a manatee.

I wanted to insert a picture of a manatee here, but I can't find my files...eek? They're gone :( So here's a puppy I met last year at Lake Eola, her name is Bella.


AND NOW....I RE-BRING TO YOU THE STILL IMAGE VIDEO OF NONSENSE THAT HAS A WHOPPING 206 HITS ON YOUTUBE. Am I famous? No...but this video just rocks.

video


Now I will blog regarding ASMP lecture, then blog on my thoughts and inspirations.

Boring but useful blogging: I attended the ASMP
"I Need to Jumpstart My Business" lecture with Judy Herrmann last night. Good stuff! It was pretty inspirational. Instead of all the usual "gloom and doom" mumbo jumbo we hear at SOMEWHERE all the time, that the industry is dying and blablabla. No offense to those people, but you're BRINGIN ME DOWN!

Judy showed us success story after success story for still photographers who when faced with the "times" and had the decision to either go bankrupt, go video or change the way they did things, and they reinvented themselves into extremely successful photographers. Heck YEAH! Now, in "these times" they reinvented themselves and are successful. She also spoke on the importance of MIXING business and personal because as artists your work is personal, and making the right decisions to get to the place in life you want to be...and the steps to get there. So on and so forth. It was a great speech. I was scared to go because I was alone but I settled in once I got there and I'm very glad that I attended.

And what I took most from it was this quote that she said, that may be slightly off but nevertheless the point is the same:
"It's impossible to create good work when you're working with a jerk", even once the job is over and its onto the next one the next day, that negativity will follow you and it will show in your work.

"We are more than photographers, we are visual communicators."
"Real good work is good without commentary"

Also, the advice to pursue whatever it is that you are passionate about because it shows in your images. She described feeling goosebumps when she sees work that she can tell the photographer was intimately involved in creating, emotionally, spiritually, whatever way you want to look at it. That is the work that I need to strive towards, and like she said, find your niche and then find a way to work it so you can make money off of it. She also strongly emphasized quality over quantity, and that she'd rather see fewer images that are amazing than a fuller portfolio with a few mediocre photos mixed in.

SUMMARY
1. Nurture your creativity
2. Nurture your relationships, stop just short of stalking. (it was a joke...but not really)
3. "When you lose your vision, take a look at what is and imagine what could be"
4. "It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you are not"


PERSONAL
I discovered over spring break, through my project on Maria Bolton (www.mariabolton.com), I can find great inspiration from artists that are not photographers, like her, but also from people who aren't even artists at all but have passion about something, be it health, yoga, biking, gardening, whatever. Being around people with passion FEEDS my creativity.

That happened to me at the "Green Drinks" event at Dandelion, my eyes became open to the community that is capable of giving me the inspiration I need to get through the hard times. All while discussing the Sunrail I had this serenity settle over me that I'm not alone as an artist, and shouldn't plan to work alone as one. What a group of amazing people. I've never felt more comfortable or accepted in my LIFE than I felt amongst them. I don't know if I've ever felt that at all. I'm not saying Dandelion is the only place that can happen but for artists, writers, designers, videographers and people who love tea (haha), but for me it was the first time I felt free to let my mind wander at ease with no fear of judgment. Good times.

I could keep going, but I gotta stop. This blog is way too long

Monday, March 29, 2010

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Face yourself, then face the world.

Quote I made up for myself. It's probably already been said. Today is one of those days that my itunes is playing songs for my mood.

Monday, March 22, 2010

"Art is the fatal net which catches these strange moments...."

Here are two from the last batch. I'm disappointed in them, but whatever, what can I do? The scanners at school are not being friendly lately, grainy, loss of detail, muted colors. It's like the symptoms of scanner depression. So I had to edit them a bit (give them their Photoshop medication) and ....there it is! There may be a second rendition of each, I may have gone a bit too far. Or maybe I should go even farther. WAYYYYYYYY father. Into oblivion. I am not going to sleep well tonight.




I keep finding quotes from these geniuses, I want them posted all throughout my house, covering the walls. Like madness. Here are my newest favorites. A few more below.


+ To become truly immortal, a work of art must escape all human limits: logic and common sense will only interfere. But once these barriers are broken, it will enter the realms of childhood visions and dreams. - Giorgio de Chirico

+ Art is the fatal net which catches these strange moments on the wing like mysterious butterflies, fleeing the innocence and distraction of common men. - Giorgio de Chirico


Sunday, March 21, 2010

Strange Little Girl

Look up the lyrics.

Shot more for my nature vs man series (seen here) and on my last blog, but the 2 black and whites aren't intermixing well with the color. I'm excited about the outcome.

I'm a little worried they may all look similar, but maybe all together it'll look like a real series, not a bunch of duplicates. We'll see. I've never been looking at anything in "series vision" as I would call it. Portfolio workshop is definitely the best class for me by far. Prof told us to go shoot whatever we want to and then come back with the work, and we'll figure out together how it all goes together, and why we're attracted to what we are. It's like art therapy! Love it. Love the freedom, the feelings, to be driven by myself rather than under the directions of another. The ones I shot today are large format so they'll be up here in a few days once I get the film processed.

I want to make art and im a hypocrite.





i rarely write in here, just in my own journal, but i feel the need for a digital rant. ONWARD!



i want to make art. ugly art, pretty art, pointless art, whatever art. just art. with no directive, just want to float along like a tumbleweed snapping everything i see. i want to have a stack of film i don't develop for months so i have surprise when i develop it months later.

i want to live in a darkroom and make photos about nature vs man but i have to be man to develop photos in a darkroom with chemicals that make the process nature vs me. i say fuck the man! and i am the man! and we are all the man! and there is no way around it...so i would decide using deductive reasoning.

We hurt one thing to help another, what a cycle!

i am open to all interpretations of things so i'm a pretty approachable person to discuss ANY matter to, i can see all sides of almost everything.

but my latest rendezvous within the orlando art, eco and living with a purpose community have really made me think think think...in a good, inspirational way. i feel tha love!!

Reminders to self:

"Good art wounds as well as delights. It must, because our defenses against the truth are wound so tightly around us. But as art chips away at our defenses, it also opens us to healing potentialities that transcend intellectual games and ego-preserving strategies."~ Rollo May, 1985, My Quest for Beauty, p. 172

"People who comprehend a thing to its very depths rarely stay faithful to it forever. For they have brought its depths into the light of day: and in the depths there is always much that is unpleasant to see." from Nietzsche's Human, all too Human, s.489, R.J. Hollingdale transl.



Thursday, March 18, 2010

Sing it Bob, every little thing is gonna be alright

Don't worry about a thing, little baby seals, every little thing is gonna be alright.














Thursday, March 11, 2010

Figure Study

Gotta start somewhere right? These are kind of polar opposite figure studies. The black and white one, I had the idea of the light exploding from one side of the body and wrapping around the other side, turning into black. Very harsh, more about the light than the subject. The other is with a lens baby, wanted to accent the curves and get the distortion and feathering from the lens than through editing.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Macro, Jaclyn Russell and the Cat Lady

Disclaimer: I am not, nor have I ever been a painter, claimed to be a painter, or claimed to know how to use a paint brush or paint.

In some sort of artistic enraged frenzy, I decided to do some really bad painting on a home depot box, destroy cotton balls, collect leaves, sticks, and mulch and most importantly, incorporate the infamous cat lady into the image to be cleaning up the mess and rebuilding earth. Which is ironic to me, and really only Jaclyn...who is the only person who can truly understand it.

So therefore, let it be open to interpretation

Anyhow, I had a macro assignment with the 4x5 and instead of just looking at something really close I decided to make a half-assed "set" and go with it and see what happens. It makes me laugh. Bob Ross would not be proud, those are not happy clouds.



Thursday, February 25, 2010

what?



I dont feel like i need to explain this. thank you.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Scheimpflug





Sounds like swine flu to me. I had the worst first experience with this technique but I'm actually not upset with the results. Things worked out well, I think. Here we go.

I was told my photos have "social commentary". I dread being one of those people, but I think I am...I'll try to embrace it and see what happens. I don't want to be a social commentary person that eventually goes crazy and protests really random weird things. We'll see, right?

And the rainbow sky is some random phenomenon. I thought it was the scanner but it turns out its on the negative. I believe I have found the Floridian aurora borealis.

Joking.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010